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You know how you have those days where everything goes wrong? Yesterday was one of those days for me.

I have been feeling incredibly shitty lately. My energy level is always low, no matter what I shove into my mouth. I have hit a slight depression, which is hard for me because anyone who knows me knows how happy I am all the time. I am the kind of person where even if I was in the deepest depression known to man, you would never be able to tell. My smile and laughter are a guise for my true feelings. I still feel fat even though no one thinks I am and I weigh 120.... which to me is 10 pounds too much, but I won't get any deeper into that. My body feels like it's betraying me... I keep getting these broken blood vessel marks where Daisy kneads my skin. Anyone who has a cat who likes to massage knows that it's not that hard, but her slight touch has managed to mark my skin. There are two more points to make, but they are gross and too personal to spill to you guys...

To get to why I'm writing this....

I drove my hubby to work, switched cars with my mom, and came back home to take a nap because I had no energy. I woke up at 1:30 to take my computer to this guy to fix it. As I was making my way down the stairs I thought I had reached the last step when... BANG... I fall forward, drop the computer, and scrape the skin off my lower thigh, and both my knees. Not one to be phased by such things, I pick the computer back up and went on my way. After dropping off the computer, I headed to the doctor where I had to have all of this stuff done to me, gave 'em some blood, and left not knowing anything about my failing health. I was done! Wanted to go home... it was 90 something degrees and I was tired. Why was I tired? I don't know! I ate. But eating doesn't seem to matter to my body. Anyway... on my way to go pick up my boyfriend I got a ticket. For speeding? Nope. For not wearing my seatbelt. If I had not worn the black strapless dress, I probably would not have that added on to my current list of stressors.

May not seem that bad... but it was for me. The 3 weeks of freaking out about my health added to the pain of that day. Got some good news though! I know that I’m not pregnant, and not anemic. So now I could possibly have diabetes or something wrong with my thyroid. Guess we’ll see! Thanks for reading love you all ^_^

I know I'm going to get some backlash for saying this... but the only reason that Hilary Clinton won the votes in Indiana is because of all of those racist seniors!

For those of you keeping up with the elections then you know that Hilary Clinton won Indiana, and Obama won North Carolina. When CNN went over the voting numbers in Indiana they pointed out that the majority of voters under 65 had overwhelmingly sided with Obama! So Hilary only won the state because of the senior citizens. Now I know that a part of the reason for them siding with Hilary was her contributions to veterans, and of course they may just like her views more than Obama's... but come on... these are the same people who abused, ridiculed, and looked down upon the African American race. In my own experience... I have noticed that my husband (who is Nigerian) and I mainly get negative looks from the elderly. They stare, they give us the stink eye... they have a problem with it. So no matter how many people are going to state other wise... Olumide and I both know that the reason she won the state is because those people don't want a black man as president. I'm not saying all of them are racist... but the amount of tolerance between age groups is pretty obvious. That’s all I want to say...

I know people are going to be mad at me… but I’m so sick and tired of the racial intolerance in this country. Those of you who think everything is fine now and everything is equal… well you are seriously mistaken. My boyfriend can’t even search for jobs online because as soon as someone reads “Olumide Said” they either think terrorist, or some African who can’t speak English. And of course the fact that they don’t know how to pronounce it will keep them from calling as well. It just drives me nuts… I have to witness what my husband goes through everyday and it hurts to know how ignorant people are.

I guess I sound biased… but can you blame me? The chances of those elderly voters being at least a little racist are extremely high. Anyways… if you read this… thank you very much for taking the time to listen to my rant. I love you all and hope you have a very nice week ^_^

-Lacey

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I am really going to be vegan now. I have tried in the past... but I will be now.